Action hero

Action hero is something that I am not blatantly, overweight, a woman, blond, a bit dumb, and well the point to this right now is that i am quite lazy!! This is not like I want to be lazy! I dont think I used to be lazy but over the years, drinking too much, enjoying doing nothing too much and having someone who also enjoys doing nothing as your husband really doesnt help. You see my thinking is that if u feel that you are going through a blip then the best thing to do is get a project, keep busy, even if it is something simple. Like me for instance today i caught up with emails and admin. And i felt better I felt like even though it was something insignificant I had achieved something!!! Pathetic really!!
But at least it was something after that we ate and watched tv and then it started again the mundune feeling of unachieving something. So yes i may have learnt to not stoo during the day and to make sure i keep busy but motivating myself to do that and for my darling hubby to do that is tricky!!! Although things could be on the up, he is looking forward in the right way!!!
So tomorrow we are off away for a few nights to celebrate wedding anniversary! Then i am going to come home and be motivated towards the next section of my life with the right intentions and goals in my heart!! No I am not confident or cocky but I am going to try. If my other half gives me the space to do it and gives me the time not to have worry about HIM!!! WOW that would be great, dont get me wrong he is lovely (now he wasnt always) but i always have to worry about what he doing and how he is feeling! Very frustrating, seems we have forgotten to be individuals!!! Maybe thats a conversation i need to have this week.
So what else.....well I think I am lonely!! Got a hubby, parents, some friends but it just doesnt quite seem enough. Sad really that i have to reach into a cyber world to find somewhere to share my thoughts not that i ever expect someone to read it, seems like blogging isnt as simple as just expressing yourself yo the rest of the world its another commercialised aspect of this deteriorating world! Doesnt mean mine has to keep deteriorating. And no shock horror i cant spell.